Avicii’s 2013 song Wake Me Up resonates with me at this current moment as “I can’t tell where the journey will end, but I know where to start.” The only difference between me and the lyrics of this song is that I do not know where to start. If I am being completely honest, I have really put off writing this paper. Not entirely on purpose, however. Life was just really busy this week and the articles that I needed to read to write the paper are quite dry and hard to stay awake and read, even after a full night’s rest (which was hard to come by this week). Coffee has been my best friend this week. Boring literary theory articles my enemies. All this being said, I still can’t find the motivation in me to write anything of value. I have little confidence in this assignment being ‘good’ by any standards. I’ve read through the instructions several times and I am still not comprehending 100% what I am supposed to be doing for the summary and evaluation portions of the assignment. I need about two weeks of hibernation to try and make sense of the articles and of my own writing. Even with an outline (my strong feelings against prewriting are still prevalent), I am unable to write anything of value, which is quite ironic (not necessarily in the Alanis Morissette way) because much of Eagleton’s argument surrounds the idea of literature being based on a system of values. If only that could be used as a basis for my summary or evaluation. I am at more of a loss than I was for my first paper in this class. This is not looking well for the trajectory of the semester.
So on that note, wake me up when it’s all over. When I’m wiser and I’m older. Until then I’ll be having nightmares about how terrible my writing is in this paper and how much of it I have yet to do with oh so little time to do any of it.